Thread:Lord Of The Rings-Fan Girl/@comment-24149196-20140603152426/@comment-24149196-20150204141746

Lately, when I come on the wiki, I have a weird feeling of forlorned distance and awkward clinginess, particularly with Emily. Am I driving any of you away? Like after I wrote the thing about seeing if Emily wanted to go to Florida with me and my family and after I wrote that last thing, I could almost hear Emily saying something like, "Nick, I have a boyfriend! It isn't appropriate for you to say stuff like that to me."

Honestly, I'm still a little too stricken with Emily; the hope is still a little too much alive. For crying out loud, I'm trying to work out a plan (albeit a hopeless one) for when I see Madeleine on Saturday night to get her to be my girlfriend and yet I'm thinking about Emily more than her! For the good of the peace and my mind, I'm going to give the wiki a break for a few days, maybe a week, and I'm going to try to keep myself distracted by other things. I'm going to start tomorrow to give everyone a chance to say anything they might want to say to me before I go. If it doesn't work, I try longer and harder, but if need be, I might have to bid thee ado indefinitely. I'm sorry, I don't want to make anyone unhappy and I definitely don't want to do anything to make things hard between Emily and Alex at all, but I have practically no filter. I just... I just want you all to... to be happy, but I don't know if I fit into that plan. Thanks for all the joy you've all brought me. See you later.